September 10th, 2020
8am
4-Day-Countdown! Brooklyn Heights is great and all. Watching the sunset from the 8th floor of The Standish building is great. But I LOVE my time alone in nature! The long ride over. Everything. Spending a day at secluded locations where nobody can hear you scream:
Stupid?- Possibly.
Relaxing?- Definitely.
But “Secluded cabin murders” only happen in Whedon films, right?
=side note= The Cabin in the Woods was MY ROLE!!! BUT I’m not bitter 🙂
(CONGRATULATIONS KRISTEEEEEEEN!! #bitch #notjealous #Namaste)
Starting my day, pilates and sauna first.
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12pm
Note to self: I love my new instructor 🙂 She’s awesome. Love how the whole house smells like sage and citrus essential oils afterwards (This time we added a hint of Aux Du Martini 😂). She let me in on her platinum-level client list and my eyes almost popped out my head. She’s having a little shindig with a few of them next week, and I’m hoping for that invite LOL. Getting in good with them could land me a lead in the next Blockbuster, who knows.
Just gotta keep pushing forward!
#NoBreaks
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4pm
John still won’t join me 😭I know he’s just busy and still loves me ❣️
He’s been so uptight since the new weirdo. I’ve had aggressive “fans” ones before but this guy’s different. Not going to worry about him TOO much.
#InControl
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8:15pm
Called Jenny/ thanked for the kitchen set. Love her so much. I tell her A-LOT lol. Maybe too much? What DOESN’T she know about me by now. Don’t know why it feels good and a little nerve-racking to have somebody who’s known you for that long and has all the goods on ya. I know she’d never let out anything we’ve ever shared, but I don’t KNOW know. That doesn’t even make sense. #FeelingLittleBitGuilty #Skeletons_n_the_Closet_much?
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September 11th, 2020
10am
It seems like only yesterday 😞Just staying in with John today. He’s still a little shook from it. I gotchu baby! #NeverForget
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September 12th, 2020
8am
T-minus-2 days! I SOOO needed this after the shoot. SO looking forward to that shindig when I get back. Sky’s the limit! Could honestly die happy if A Quiet Place Part II was my last film 😃
(Hope I don’t #KnockonWood)
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1pm
A-GAIN???? No way, we’re getting a restraining order. What makes someone think an actress would be OK with a complete stranger sneaking past their doorman, ringing the doorbell while they’re having lunch with the fam, and asking to take a picture?!? Am I missing something?? And where the hell was Earl?! What’s he getting paid for?? Seriously scary, hubby’s hand will be achy for a while, but nowhere near as achy as that guy’ll be for the next couple of weeks 😡. I understand John’s nervous, but this trip means a lot to me, and I refuse to live in fear.
Besides we have the restraining order on him now. Better not be a next time.
#InControl
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7pm
Actually IN-LOVE with this kitchen set! Jenny knows me so well. #BF4Life
I know she’s worried about the creep, and she’s probably right it’s probably not the best time to do the trip. What if there was a copycat?? 😯 #Freakin_Myself_Out
Will have to think about it. I Promised her I’d take pictures for evidence 😂
7:01pm
OK DONE THINKING, I’M STILL GOING!!!
I know there’re risks, but I KNOW know that I’m moving the right way.
…or am II just being defiant? #Mommy’sLittleRebel ?
Really wonder sometimes if I’m doing this whole acting thing just because it was like the ONLY way to get mom n dad’s attention. Always wanting to escape back to nature is starting to make a LOT more sense.
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September 13th, 2020
4am
Felt a little nervous after that whole thing. Turns out the guy’s name is James (he even LOOKS like a James).
At least they’d know who did it if something happened to me tomorrow LOL!
John’s still bent out of shape over it, but my mind’s set!
STILL READY FOR THIS TRIP! I GOT this.
#NoBackingDown
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September 14th, 2020
11am
I’M FINALLY HEEEERE!!! 24-hours of MEEEEE time! I love this place, the mosaic of sun twinkling through the fall trees, the tree roots that make a path of stairs leading to the cabin. I don’t remember the old car off the side of the road. Must’ve been parked there for years without me noticing. Whatevz!
Time to unpack and unwind.
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7pm
Time goes by TOO fast 😢Am I getting old? Well obviously but this was just TOO FAST!
But I needed this. Loved swimming in the lake one last time before it got too cold. Just have to upload the rest of these selfies to my instagram. Fans are LOVING them. I’m guna miss this place. Guess it’s back to reality 😮💨
I could really just walk away from the limelight for this. Does that make me a bad person?
I’m sure my parents would just LOVE that. #Yea_No
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7:15pm
Strange, getting likes for a picture I couldn’t have even taken of MYSELF jumping into the lake…FROM THE HOUSE! #Spooky #Ai_Nerds_Get_A_Life
Guna Check before I leave. Also just noticed 14 missed calls.
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7:17pm
I did not take this picture it’s like someone TOOK it of me while I was swimming could’ve accidentally set the selfie timer feeling pretty freaked out trying to call back but terrible reception out here Hope it’s nothing important. Might just be paranoid but could’ve sworn I heard somebody around the back. The more I think about it, there never was an old car just parked by the house. I’m pretty sure I would’ve noticed it after all these years. Was this a mistake? This is the first time I’ve actually felt scared and not in control.
I just wanted to get away.
Be loved and get away.
Maybe I’m #Thinking2Much
ANYwhooooos being a nervous wreck isn’t helping anything LOL in the mean time keeping this diary sure comes in handy when I need a distraction LOL I’ll just keep writing until I get a signal aga….
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